Curry Rice with Spinach salad night

Our dinner tonight....
Just to write it down here so I won't forget how to make it next time ;)

Beef Curry Stew

Ingredients:

Carrots *3 (Medium length)

Potatoes *3 (Medium large size)

Onion *1/3

Beef for stew * 1 lb (cut into one-bite sizes)

Curry paste brick *100g (S&B mild hot is my favorite)

Vegetable oil 2 table spoon

Pot A: boiling carrots and potatoes for roughly 10-15mins (medium fire)

Pan B: (frying pan)

Add vegetable oil in pot with big temp

Wait till the oil is warm

Add the Onions to fry for 1~2 mins

Add the beef to let the surfaces cooked so the juice will stay inside

Filter PotA to dry and add it to PanB

Add 2cups water till boil, turn the stove temp down to medium

Boiling for 10 mins or so till the potatoes and carrots are softened

Then add curry paste and stir properly till it's melted

Spinach Salad

Spinach 4-5 cups

Avocado 1/2

Tomato 1 cup

Spring onion *1

Raisins 1/4 cup

Spinach cut into one-bite sizes as well a

s tomato, avocado

Mix them all together then put raisins and spring onion on top at the last

(oh yeah, spring onion needs to be cut into small pieces)

by Randy Pausch

"It's not about how to achieve your dreams. it's about how to live your life.

To live your life the right way, then karma will take care of itself.The dream will come to you. "

"The brick walls are there for a reason: they let us prove how badly we want something. The brick walls are there to stop people who doesn't want it badly enough. They are there to stop other people. "

That day, on the bus back from Taipei, I saw an accident. And sudden

ly I realized, if I die now, I don't feel I have wasted my whole life working or to live for other people. Then I feel my eyes were moisturized a bit.

I am happy I am lucky enough to stop a bit when I am turning 30 to think about what I really want to do. Even it's just for interest.

We all have to live hard and fantastic. Then... we won't be afraid of death one day.

深夜漣漪...

今天苑裡外拍,老師給了我一個作業... 題目是"20年後的自拍照"

老師說他會持續給我作業,要我繼續加油、創作。

離別的時候，老師問"要不要抱一下?" 於是我們擁抱，老師久久沒放開，像要安慰我似又像自己在認真告別似的的在我背上拍著。

老師的感受力太強了，被人懂得的感覺真的很容易讓人卸下偽裝，打開心防。

我是強裝堅強的....從8年前開始....

這樣的個性被察覺了，也被諒解和珍惜了... 我很開心能認識這群攝影班的朋友和老師，但是相聚的時光這麼短暫，短暫到自己都害怕會很快忘記...

晚上要離別前,提到開車...老師說他有時會開快車,心情不好的時候....then 看著我認真措詞的說了一句"我兼具內斂和瘋狂的兩面"... 看著他認真想表達的眼神,我說了一句"嗯...我能懂" 剎那間，我覺得老師也開啟了他的心防...

緣起...希望永遠不滅~

作業:

1. email my address

2. 攝影紀念本

3. 2組系列作品 for exhibition

4. 變形記

5. "20年後的自拍照"

30

還記得...不知幾歲時，自己突發奇想..."30歲好老喔~ 不然我30歲就自殺，在輪迴一次從零開始..."

姑且不論這個想法多麼的偏激... 但在我寥寥無幾的回憶中，就對30歲有這個印象...

今年8月,就要滿30了.... 會很老嗎? 是比較老了... 但會想自殺嗎? 當然不會~ 生命這麼美好,這麼奇妙，我怎捨得離開。

人生永遠充滿驚喜，只要你停的夠久，看的夠仔細，你就會發現...

還記得幾年前買了本看似很可愛的繪本叫'Fragile (脆弱)'

當時興高采烈地買回來，番了幾頁，就不看了，裡面的文字，實在不懂...

這兩天因為要整理帶去加拿大的書籍，再次番了番這本繪本....在一頁我停住了，讀了兩次，凝視著他配合文字的圖片...

一切都明瞭了....

<行動>

"這憂鬱到來，深深地。

事物從來不曾看似如此靠近，如此美

好，如此容易品味。

光，從來不曾到達如此絕對的平靜。

我們可不是真的愚笨，

這樣的安詳，是因為我們正要將它拋棄。

這般的靜止，是因為我們就要起身，就要飛奔而去。

可以懊悔的事，會有那麼那麼多。

令人害怕的，是這世界如此寧靜，深深地。"

一切都變得有意義了~ 我，30歲，能體會更多不同的人生的感受了，因為我經歷的更多了，駐足的夠久了。

活著，認真感受。

當有一天我們可以寫出動人的話語，體會文學的事實，就是我們為自己走過的歲月留下的痕跡...

Happy 30... :)

the Blind side

Another night watching a movie with red wine.... Tonight the movie is the Blind Side.

It's talking about a rich white woman adopted a black kid who has nowhere to stay and no future at all based on a true story.

However, while watching the movie, I feel touched not only for the kindness of the Mother but mostly for the love between the white couple.

Sandra Block is the Mother in the movie. She is a tough woman who gets what she wants no matter how hard it could be or how difficult it could be.

Her husband is the owner of a chain Taco store in USA. He loves her and supports her no matter what she wants to do.

The most touching part in the movie... well for me anyways is....

While she is thinking about to adopt the kid....

husband: I mean the kid we barly know.     wife: That's another thing. We need to find out more about his past.     husband: He won't talk about it. He's like an onion,     you have to peel him back a layer at a time.     wife: Not if you use a knife.     What if we took him to a child psychologist or something?     husband: Do you really expect Big Mike---

wife: "Michael"     husband: You really expect Michael to lie down on a coach and talk about his childhood     like he's Woody Allen or something?     wife: I mean, Michael's gift is his ability to forget.     husband: He's mad at no one and he really didn't care what happened in the past.     wife: You're right.     husband: Excuse me? "You're right?" How'd those words taste coming out of your mouth?     wife: Like vinegar. At least promise me you'll think about it.     husband: Alright.     wife: "Alright" you'll think about it or "alright" we should do it?     husband: Is there a difference?

And then, they adopted the kid... :)

It makes me feel that how lucky it is to be loved and understood and supported by your husband. 

choice of life

Feeling tired but don't feel like going to bed yet, just like every other night.

Lonesome could be an enzyme... accelerate your thoughts to be wondering and creating.

Even just creating some lame words... or feelings.

I can't stop think of this line tonight.

Jamaican Woman: It nice it happen to you. Like you come to the island and had a holiday. Sun didn't burn you red-red, just brown. You sleep and no mosquito eat you. But the truth is, it bound to happen if you stay long enough. So take that nice picture you got in your head home with you, but don't be fooled. We lonely here mostly too. If we lucky, maybe, we got some nice pictures to take with us.

It's from Meet Joe Black. While the Death went to visit the sick Jamaican woman in Susan's hospital.

I think that is what's happening and I should hold it right there when everything is still great.

Maybe life is about a little bit of sacrifice, if you have to call it that.

Time to leave... for the new future...

Be tough, this is life.

You think that if you don't do this then you've never lived. Then you should know that life isn't always about happiness and satisfaction. Sometimes these come with sacrifice and loneliness. We all have to live with it and enjoy it, for both good and bad... This is life. The life you want to hold on so tight...

The Weary Kind- Ryan Bingham

"Your hearts on the loose

you rolled them sevens with nothing to lose
this ain't no place for the weary kind

you called all your shots
shooting 8 ball at the corner truck stop
somehow this don't feel like home anymore

(chorus)
this ain't no place for the weary kind
this ain't no place to lose your mind
this ain't no place to fall behind
pick up your crazy heart and give it one more try

your body aches
playin' your guitar
sweatin' out the hate
the days and the nights
all feel the same

the whiskey has been
a thorn in your side
it doesn't forget
the highway that calls your heart inside

(chorus)
this ain't no place for the weary kind
this ain't no place to lose your mind
this ain't no place to fall behind
pick up your crazy heart and give it one more try

your lovers warm kiss
is to damn far from your fingertips
you are the man that ruined her world

Your hearts on the loose
you rolled them sevens with nothing to lose
this ain't no place for the weary kind"